I have come so far before I couldn't even read or understand English well. Now I'm more confident I've started writing some poems. I've posted on Poetry.com and I've gotten some reviews too. Here's two of my poems. I have more on Poetry.com.

i stand Average rating: 4 reviews

 

by Zack Pene

Submitted 12 days ago

i stand not because she needs me but because i need her. My purpose my one, my hope no joke. she brought peace and something more. That is why i stand with her. My meaning, my beacon for my lost ship. My vision is blurring, my arms and legs are heavy and i am fading, fading, but then she stands with me and that is all i need. I dont need the world to like me just her. Her.. and her name is ..............

 

 

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you like teal, thats what you said. does that mean you feel because i like red.

you like animals, so do but i am one so thats just bias.

 i dont understand you so tell me why you are my lady so said   

As I was growing up I was exposed to a lot of different entertainment, I watched TV now and then. Some of my favorite movies are lord of the rings, pirates of the Caribbean, King Kong, and Godzilla. Now I just like scary movies. But I always watch scary movies with someone and with the lights on. Just kidding, in a big boy I watch it all alone and hardcore with the lights off and the window open. I watch it with someone who is usually more scared to feel better about myself. I think the most scariest horror films I’ve ever watched is The Grudge just because of all the creepy sound effects and the scary girl, and how she appears everywhere and the scary girl, and how she doesn’t respect privacy and the scary girl. Right now I am eager to watch insidious. I also like horror comedies like scary movie 3.  I like watching monster movies too, like the Godzilla series just because it is really dumb. Generally i like the thrill of watching scary movies, my freinds back home loved them too but they were never scared. Funny how i was scared of a girl ghost. I dont something about the girl in the grudge always creeps me out. Another creepy movie would be The ring. This movie also had another creepy girl ghost spirit.

In fiji it took me a long time to actually become well-versed in English. It helped that i was not allowed to watch tv much, i mean during the day i was always outside. But at night I stayed indoors mostly and so one day i got really bored and decided maybe it wouldnt be so bad to read this book my Aunty had, it was Harry Potter and the goblet of fire. Im embarrased to say i did read the Harry potter series once upon a time and i once liked it. I mostly liked it because it was easy to read and it talked about food, like alot, i also liked that it talked about monsters. In my spare time i sometimes draw monsters, ive drawn alot of dragons cause they are easier. Well thats how i became fluent, i also had an english tutor here for a while. She was a good teacher. And then i came here, so thats how i learned English. My english is not the best but its alright. In fiji my English was less developed  and i mostly spoke broken English, rotuman, fijian, and a little hindi. So i wasnt the best at English. When i came here i had to put alot of work into it. Now my english is much better, compared to before so if i slip up, so try not judge me. One more question " would you go to Fiji if i had a free ticket". You won't lost your ability to speak English.

School in fiji was very different. I got into a lot of trouble and i was lost. So lost i didnt know which way was up.  I was so angry sometimes and other times i was bursting with happiness. It was like i had dived to deep and was so far beneath the waves that i knew i was not coming up. And if i did come up i would not be able to stay above the waves for long. I knew i was gonna sink again but that didnt stop me from trying to get some sense of reality. Sometimes me and my freinds would get into fights with others. Actually it was kinda funny my first day i had no freinds and in Fiji they pick someone to introduce into school. They introduced by putting a curtain over you and beating on you. I was fortunate that i could break out, i was lucky i guess.  I got out mostly i guess cause iwas mad, mad because for when they put that curtain over me i was scared. I was mad cause they had made me feel fear. Later that day a kid walked up to me. His name was Emosi, i also noticed people seemed nervous of him. Later when we became freinds i understood why. Emosi had so much anger, and hatred, it just came off him in waves. He would smile but it seemed fake. The only time i saw Emosi truly happy was when he was fighting or annoying people. Later i found out his anger came from his drunk dad who beat him a lot. Emosi and i were freinds but even i was creeped out by him. I think Emosi was damaged, and i felt sorry for him, but he didnt want pity. Once i asked if he wanted to talk, he just left and thats how i knew he was mad with me. He leaves so that he doesnt do something he regrets. I would not have fought back but even so it wouldnt matter. Every fight just makes him angrier. Ive seen him lose some and then on the same day go back and win. He was crazy, bitter, cruel but my freind. Sometimes i wonder if he is fighting in his head to. I know i have conflict in me, but ive realized mine would look petty compared to the battles in his heart. I am sad because i dont know where or how his doing now.

 Do you fear the dark? I know I once did. Ever wonder why you did? because fear usually stems from the lack of understanding and a wild imagination. That's how I felt when I first went deep sea swimming. It wasn't that I afraid of sharks or anything like that just something unknown in the waves. Well actually I was afraid of stingrays mostly. I ve seen a lot of stingrays in markets, in aquariums but I have also seen them in peson. The one time I really freaked out was when I was swimming with my family in Fiji and I saw a dark shape in the water. I thought it was a t shirt because some drunk people forget their shirts in the sea except it was moving. I was actually tempted to touch it but then my cousin knew what it was and told me to stay still. It was only later did I realize that it was a stingray. We went back to that swimming spot a couple times but I never saw another one. I have seen what stingrays can do to people when people step on them. Its some scary stuff. My cousin then told me that most stingrays like black sand. There is this island called Narii in Fiji and when people visit it they have to wade at least 1/4 of a mile to reach the shore cause the boats cant go into the shallows or they'll get beached. And so this is called "the walk of faith" according to the people of Narii if you are dishonest and evil you will be stung by the stingrays who lie in the sand. I know my uncle went there and he didn't get stung but he said god was watching over him because he knew some people who were unlucky and got stung. This is how I felt when I came to America, I misunderstood it and I feared it would change me, and it did. Thankfully for better. Every time I am forced to do something new I remember the stingray, the deep sea and the dark. Mostly the stingray though. Now I realized stingrays are dangerous and that's good because it makes me respect them, but more importantly that if I dont understand something I should not automatically dismiss it.

For this post I want to talk about the old days. Looking back I ave changed a lot physically and mentally. I have moved on and so have the people back home. Im all grown up and yet im afraid to venture out there. Im worried, will I make it in college? will I be able to graduate well? will I ever find peace? will I even secure a job?. I envy the old days when I didn't need to stress over such things, when life was less complicated. When I was young I thought I had it hard with all my chores and homework and my family always pushing me to study, but now I have so many responsibilities, im just swamped. And that my friend is kind of funny because I love a challenge, just not an impossible one. But that's why we live right and strive because everyone wants to do the impossible. And so that's why im here living. For the challenge and for others im gonna keep going with all ive got. I have come so far. To show you this let me show some pictures and then you can decide not only if I have come far but hopefully decide if you yourself has come far. Lot of things I fear but one is failure. and looking back ive realized that ot get to where im at today I have had to fail a lot and pretty bad in some instances. Graduations coming up and im excited but im also worried for what comes next. But I will accept the challenge because its not worth doing if its not ridiculously impossible. You tell me. I have learnt this from my island home and also from here, America.

There are many memories which i can share many which i wish you could see or experience. If i could i would record my life and let  you see the fun i had at home. I was swimming and playing and just living. I miss the food.  Back home i could walk into a cfijian restaurant and order chowmein or lolo fish and they would give me good home cooked food. Food which would fill me up and was cheap. This food tasted phenomonal for its humble surroundingsI could get a whole serving of chicken palou for 3.50 and that serving would be one huge mound of hot delicous chicken rice and spices. I loved to go to the fijian restaurants not the ones which came from overseas. The only foreign restaurant i liked was KFC. No one can mess up chicken except maybe popeyes.